Maioush

I’ve been having bad workdays for 3 days in a row; Monday was a state holiday so I enjoyed my long weekend, went out with friends, cleaned my room, the carpet, the window, changed the sheets, reorganized the closet, and moved all the cabinets, maaaaaan clean feels gooood :) .Then my week started, and the entire good mood GONE…

Day 1:

My day started with a very rough morning, my 2 bosses flight to Sacramento for a Medication Management meeting, and I was left behind to deal with 5 Seattleite pharmacies and a hospital and not to forget the main pharmacy, I was running in the department like a chicken without a head.

V has a class and my boss forgot to tell me before she left, we have one technician short at central, I spend 2 hours trying to find her because they saw her walking in this morning and 15 minutes later, she gone, E called in sick (which I understand with all the drama she is going through) now I have a problem; I have no pharmacist at west, and for my bad luck the technician at the same pharmacy broke her toes and called in sick too, which means one thing… one of our satellite pharmacies is closed!!!

Mai, call Ted to find an on call pharmacist. Mai, call Darryl to find an on call technicians. Mai, the prescriptions are not going through any more, Mai, I have a new doctor and I need his DEA, Mai…… UUURRRRRRRRGGGGGG give me a break, I’m only one person!!!!!!

Day 2:

My day started at 5:00am, I had to be in the office at 7:00 (I’ve been doing that a lot lately), I’m tired, N and H (my bosses) came back from their trip, N was in such a bad mood, she checked her messages, and E is not here today too.

S and N were suppose to have a class, they canceled it for some reason, N came back to the pharmacy, but S was ALSO in a bad mood when he came back, I end up having an argument with him for the first time in a year, I was really mad at him, I don’t get it, why is he mad a gain?? Because I was trying to do something nice… whatever!!!

V called me right at 4, she needs help for 30 minutes.. hhmmm, I think I’m ok with that, alright I’ll go, I was stuck there for an hour and a half… I want to go home.

Day 3:

Lets start with the fact that we had an accident and some one died last night, the whole place is a miss, everybody is confused, I really don’t have mood to deal with this today, its enough for me that I’m working for 12 hours today because I have a class starts at 6:30pm and ends at 8:00pm, oh my god 8:00pm??? You’re kidding me???

Its still 12:00pm … 8 hours to go :( …

Update

GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD news :)

My days just twisted 180° :D , the class has been canceled, I’m going home, I guess I’m suppose to go to sleep, but instead I’m going to the mall, F called and she wants to shop for the kids, I’ll go finish shopping for my gifts too, I have at least 52 people to shop for, so I better start thinking what to get them :)

Looks like the nagging came to an end ;)

the day has ended great :)

My heart smiles each time I remember our special friendship.

I treasure the quiet times we spend together sharing our secrets, hopes and dreams.

I know I can count on you to always be there when I need a hand to hold, or a comforting hug.

When I think of what fills my life with love.

You are always at the top of the list.

Although I never celebrated Valentine’s before,

But this is a Valentine greeting for Someone Special

Because you’re there for me…

Because I know you care…

Because we have that special friendship…

I’m sending you this Valentine…

A special wish your way…

For warmth and love to fill your life…

Today and every day.

Knowing one’s self, both the good and the bad, and understanding none of us are perfect, and allowing for and forgiving yourself for shortcomings.

An acceptance of things as they are, and accepting the inability to change another person.

No matter how badly you want to, you don’t have that power.

The ability to treat each individual as an equal and a unique person.

Not doing so denigrates the self and God.

Letting go of being your own worst critic.

The ability to ignore the taunts and barbs of others.

It only shows that which they lack in themselves.

Loving the people in your life fully and wholly… Without restraints or limits.

Can it be love any other way?

Accepting that some days are going to hurt.

And some days will be hard to find value in, but it’s there if we can open up to it.

Finding beauty and pleasure in the small things.

A flower unexpectedly given or seen.

A walk on the beach or under the trees.

The stars shining at night.

If we can’t find pleasure in the small things… the larger ones, will also escape us.

Loving others.

It’s a sure sign of peace with ourselves.

How can we truly love someone else if we can’t find that which is lovable in ourselves?

YES my dad is back.. I’m so happy… :D

He got home last night at 12:30am, once I opened the door and he hugged me like he hasn’t seen me for years and years

-keefek Mai ya amoora?

– (big smile) el 7amdolla meshta2alak kteeeeeeeeer, enta keef 7alak?

I don’t know why but for some reason when it comes to my dad I feel like a 6 years old kid :) , wow… I missed that feeling for the past 4 weeks, he was so happy that he is finally home, and he was looking at every thing like he is looking at it for the first time.

My mom prepared A LOT of food before she left, we were eating chicken at 1:00am, oh my god it was crazy, I’ve never done it before, he was telling us all these stories about Jordan, how cold it is, how prices are going up like crazy, but he enjoyed his trip to the limit.

He opened the bags right a way to give us all the stuff he got for us, and I was so surprised when I found some of my old toys in there :D , he brought some of the toys I used to have in my room in Jordan… “Babaaaaaaaa… this is great Thaaaaank youuuuuuu”

Today I was so happy when I woke up at his voice playing with my little brother Hashem :D .. they were chasing each other because Baba stole his toy that he just got for him, and Hashem was trying to get it from him LOOOOOOOOOL.

As a welcome from my mom, she invited my uncle’s family over lunch, OH MY GOD, she cooked a lot of food, it was soooooooooooooooooo good, my mom is the best cook in this world, I wish I can cook 1% of her recipes as good as she does.

We were laughing like crazy while we were eating when my dad was telling us all these funny stories about what he used to do to my uncles while playing “Tarneeb”, and about the new generation that I haven’t met yet, my dad was like “there is a lot of new kids in the family and I don’t even know them, they all look alike and it took me forever to memories their names” LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

After lunch, my mom made some fresh coffee that my dad brought with him, YUMMY, smells like heaven on earth, and with some “ba2lawa” ya salaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam… :)

I’m really happy today, the house is back to normal :) .. as mama said “seed el beat 3ad ela qawa3edehe saleman” :D

Welcome back Baba

Mama … I know you will read this as you always do… I LOVE YOU WALAHI :D

You just brought a smile to my lips.

One I’d needed for awhile.

Do you know how the teasing laughter

made my load lighter and made my steps

a little easier to take?

Talking with you helped me forget the

troubles that have been walking beside me.

You helped me leave them behind for awhile.

Thank you for that time.

It might not have seemed like a great deal to you

But to me it meant the world.

I kow its a little too late for this, but the reason why is because I wasn’t planing to post about it, it makes me really sad to remember Feb 7th.1999 .. It was “The Death of King Hussein of Jordan”

After months of treatment for lymph cancer, the cause of death was heart failure, said senior palace officials who were with the king when his heart stopped beating.

The 63-year-old King – the Middle East’s longest-serving leader and one of the region’s great peace-makers – had returned home to die on a Friday when doctors in the United States said they could do no more for him.

This is for the memory of king Hussein’s death…

Today was a nice day, although nothing really special happened, I woke up at 5:00am and that’s BAAAAAD because I had to be in the office at 6:30am and  I usually start at 8:00am :s , we had a medical class and I was suppose to meet the speaker before the rest of the doctors come over, since I’m the one who is presenting pharmacy and we are the only ones who has the right to have speakers talking about medications and medications researches.

I got there at 6:30am as I was suppose to be, I checked the conference room and it was ready, I was so happy because and for the first time ever, I ask the nurses to do something and they would do it right. We had such a wonderful class (I was half a sleep, I guess that’s why I liked it  LOOOOOL :D ), and I left back to the office to finish my work.

Ops, I have to call E to make sure she is okay, she was in a very bad shape yesterday, thank god, she is doing much better, and she ended up getting what she wanted, I’m so glad for that.

At lunch time me, S, V, N, L, and  E decided to have lunch at this new Persian restaurant close by, G (new girl at work) joined us too, the only reason we took her is because S seems to like her very much, so he asked us to ask her to come with us so they would have the chance to talk ;) , so today we became 6 girls instead if 5 and he STILL remains to be the only guy among us LOOOOOOOOOOOOL.

By the time I was ready to leave the office S surprised me with a call telling me that I have a flat tire, he is standing next to my car and giving me such a hard time for not being attention and how did drive all the way to work without even knowing about it, and how risky it is and how would flip over, blah blah blah, OK I GET IT… for some reason I wasn’t upset , this the first time I have a flat tire since I came to the states, so I asked him what should I do because I’ve never done before, of course he was laughing at me like crazy LOOOOOOOL, we drove to the gas station and he taught me how to fill the tire with air… Thanks S.

In the after noon I called my Friend F and asked her to meet me at the mall, I wanted to buy a gift to a very close friend of mine who is getting married in April, and I will in Jordan at the time to attend her wedding (yes I got my ticket few days ago , I’m so excited), so any way, instead of buying my friend a gift I ended up buying a very very very very nice gift to another friend of mine, I was so happy, I’m still looking at it every 2 minutes :D , WOW, I love it, its just… hmmm how do I say it.. Special.. I really love it.

Do you ever feel forgotten?

Like no one in the world cares?

Are there times when it seems not a solitary person is there when you need them?

Do you feel, more than anything else, a longing to be hugged and told that it will get better?

Do you ever wonder why bad things always happen to you?

Do you ask your self what did you do to deserve this?

Look around you.

Look all around you.

See the small details of every day life

It’s God’s way of saying

“I am with you always”

Ellie.. hang in there, things will get better, you will be fine.

You did what had to be done, things will change soon,we all love you, we are there for you, and most importantly..

God is there for you…

I can choose to let everything around me pull me down into the depths of self doubts and anger

Or

I can choose to find first the good in myself and those that surround me. 

I can choose to see only the negative in the situation that presents itself to me

Or

I can look for the positive things in all my endeavors. 

I can choose to let the dark part of my soul take over and tear at my confidence

Or

I can choose to see the light, the brightness in who I am and find comfort and center in my self. 

I can let fear drive wedges between those that I love and myself

Or

I can find the strength and the faith to cherish those relationships and hold fast to them. 

I can choose to live my life fully and honestly, letting each person I meet know their worth to me, even when we don’t always agree.

I can choose to remove myself from those situations

I can not control without losing my sense of purpose.

I can choose to value all life without agreeing with all opinions.

I can choose to be strong.

I can choose to be loving.

I can choose to be true to myself.

I can choose to live fully and without regret. 

And most of all

I can choose to share those beliefs and that life with people

I hold close in my heart… people I am proud to call friends.

In days like this, I really miss Jordan, I miss being around the people I love…

Basil, my sweet brother graduated from Al Ahliyya Amman University, Faculty of Pharmacy and Medical Sciences… My little brother is now officially a Pharmacist :)

I wish for you Basil all the luck in the world, I wish your career life will be a very successful one, we are all happy for you, and can’t wait for you to come here to be with us again, we really miss you…

Congratulation Basil again and again and again… Good job :D