Maioush

If I could give my mom the world
Or anything she wanted,
I’d give her my own heart and soul
And leave my own heart haunted.

I’d take upon myself her life
With all its strife and pain,
And let her ease into some space
Where she could live again.

The pain for me would not be pain,
At least not for a while;
For I’d be doing it for her,
And I would see her smile.

I wish that I could take her heart
And cleanse it with my tears,
And make her sorrow go away,
And answer all her fears.

I wish, I wish, but then I can’t,
As I watch helplessly,
And take her in my arms and say
I wish that it were me.

But loving is a hard, hard way,
With all the pain it brings.
And yet there is no other way
To touch the heart of things.

When I was little and I cried
You lovingly held me, and let the last tear fall,
When I would scrape my knee
You’d bandage it up and say “be careful”.
When my birthday was horrible, you smiled
And promised the next would be perfect.
When I would lose my temper,
You had a way to calm me down.
When my friends left me behind,
You gave me ice cream and said
“they’ll come around”
When I had a nightmare
You’d tuck me in your bed and
Reassured me you’d never let harm find me.
When it was my graduation day
You threw me a party fit for a princess.
And made it a day I would always remember.
When the love of my life left me alone,
So sweetly you said, “This too shall pass.”
When I broke your heart with disappointment
You came to me and said, “I still love you”.
I know that you think that I forgot all this,
And take all you sacrificed for granted,
But that’s just not true.
At times I’m stubborn, as well as you,
But never doubt for half a second that
I love you.
Although I am growing up and someday soon,
I’ll have to bandage my own knee,
You’ll always be the bet mother.
And I’ll always be your little girl.

Attention all costumers and employees, we have a Code Adam, 3 years old girl, wearing a white shirt, blue jeans, and pink shoes, brown eyes, and her name is Yara…

YES… WE LOST YARA!!!!!

That would be the worst nightmare any parent can go through ever in their lives, and our nightmare came true today at Walmart.

Fatina and I went to Walmart today to look for some stuff for the house, at some point wo went 2 different ways (we usually do that we she starts looking for either kids stuff or kitchen thingies) , 10 minutes later she called me to ask me if Yara with me or not… I was like “Yara??? No isn’t she with you??”.

Fatina started screaming over the phone “Maaaaaaaaaaai …Yara da3at.. da3at el benet, mesh la2yaha wala makan” .

I didn’t know what to think any more, I started running around the store calling her name, the only thing came to my mind that someone took her and she is maybe out of the store already.. my god .. we lost Yara!!!!!!!!! .. all of a sudden, it hit me right in the head.. can I be more stupid??? I ran as fast as I can to customer service and told the manager that there is a 3 years old girl missing and I’m a afraid that she might go out the store.

The manager took an action right a way and announce a Code Adam, and described Yara as I told him, and he made sure to watch all the gates in case she leaves either by herself, or with someone else other than me or her mom, all the employees started the search as soon as the code was announced.

Those were the LONGEST 15 minutes in my entire life, I told Fatina to look in the bathroom, fitting rooms, and watch the gates, and  I was running from section to another calling her name, I felt my heartbeat was more than 180 I swear to god, I got to a point a couldn’t breath, but instead I started screaming her name louder and louder, all I wanted at that moment is to find her, when I heard the manager calling my name and saying that he found the kid I jumped their within 5 seconds.

Goodness God, Oh My God, YARA.. she was there with one of the ladies, smiling, I hold her and started crying “y3ademni yahom le yahood ya Yara, walek keef fletti mn el 3arabayeh enti? , ya rabbi… el 7amdolla enek mnee7a”

Ops.. Fatina, I have to call her “Fatina, Ta3alli haina hoon”.

Poor Fatina, her face was full of tears, and her face was sooooo pale, she hugged her and sat in the ground and started crying even more.

MY GOD.. that was the worst experience in my entire life… Thank God she was safe and sound.. to be hounest, I’m still shaking till this moment, I can’t feel my knees, and my heartbeat is still high, I can still feel like it will bump out of my chest.

El7amdolla 3ala Kol Shi.. Ejat Saleemeh.

In the silence of my heart

My mind still cries for answers.

The pain comes calling once again

and tears wash through my soul.

The need to understand still so strong,

the love once felt so close at hand.

Temptation to reach out to you.

Almost I fall into it’s reach.

Almost to touch your hand

Almost to hear your voice

Almost to share you spirit

Almost to love you once more.

So close to my heart

The memories linger

and in the stillness of my being

still beckon to me.

I’ve been working where I work for a year now (Actually it will be a year on march 31), but yesterday and only yesterday I discovered that everybody around me, and I mean by that everybody including administration, nurses, dental, X ray, clinics, even patients, except pharmacy department, call’s me either Cher, or Cher’s daughter.

I found that coincidence, when one patient (Psych one) was yelling his lungs out at B the pharmacist that he doesn’t want to explain his problem to anyone in the pharmacy but to miss Cher, B was trying to convince him that we DO NOT have Cher in here, I was at the office at that time and I was passing by the pharmacy to drop some paper work, and when he saw me,  he was pointing at me and telling B “HERE SHE IS, HERE SHE IS. I TOLD YOU I SAW CHER AT YOUR PHARMACY”.

That’s when B cracked up :D … “AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH you mean Mai… Sir this is our tech Mai, she is not Cher”.

To cut the story short, I like Cher, she is nice and every thing, but there is one little problem… I DO NOT LOOK LIKE HER.

Lets see.. cher had a black curly hair once in her life, I have a black curly hair now… that’s it, there is NOTHING else in common between the 2 of us, Nothing.

And that my coworkers at the pharmacy knew that I’ve been called Cher everywhere, they started calling me Cher too.. Come on guys, not you too!!!

B , L, and R were like “you know after a deep look at you, you can go for Cher’s daughter, the overall look is the same”.

I don’t know, maybe, but personally.. I don’t think so

I’ve been tagged by the cute Red Rose :) and for you honey .. I’ll answer both .. tekraamiiiiiiii :D

What I know about You dear ..

My name?

Cute Manal :)

Where did we meet?

Online.. We read each other’s blogs.
How well do you know me?

Good enough to tell you, you have a wonderful heart :)

When you first knew me what was your first impression?

I don’t know why, but I got the feeling that you are Very sensitive person, are you?

Am I shy or outgoing?

I imagine you outgoing in a very shy way (ma ba3ref keef zabtat), is there such a thing? :)

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules?

You follow the rules I guess.

Do you consider me as a friend?

SUUUUUUUUUUREEEEEEEEEE walaw :D

If there were a good nickname for me what would it be?

Cute little Red Rose :)

What song (if any) reminds you of me?

Kermala by Ragheb Alama :D
Do I remind you of any characters on TV?

A TV host here in the states, she is really a nice person, when I saw your pictures I remembered her :)

A feature that you like in me?

You are very pure
A feature that you dislike about me?

None :D

If you would give me anything what would it be?

Hmmm lets see, I think you are a fashion girl but you also love jasmine so I’ll give a bunch of jasmine flowers :)

If we spent a day together… where would we go?

Kteeeeeeeeeeeeer, shopping, go eat Shawerma… hehehe, maybe go to the gym together since we both already go, I’ve always wanted a gym partner :D . we will have so much fun mn el akher :D
If you could describe me in one word, what would it be?

pure

What word do I say all the time?

Ya ‘3abra ya 7azeeneh LOOOOOOOOOOOOL J/K :D

Which of the posts I posted on my blog do you like the most?

 Your post about the full moon, that was AMAZING…
Which of the posts I posted on my blog do you like the least?

None sara7a.. I like your posts, and I enjoy reading it :)

Home Made Tag

If there was a fire at your house and you could save only one thing (item) what would that be?

My laptop

?What is the most embarrassing situation you have been in

  hehehe.. kteeeeeeeeer.. but the most would be when I lie and I get caught :S .. that’s not good lah lah  

If you can do over a part of your life, what will you change?

I would’ve changed the fact that I moved to the states, I would’ve stayed in Jordan with the people I love

Thanks Manal for the Tags :D … I enjoyed answering … ;)

Today, as I celebrated with Fatina her birthday, we decided to do it the Arabic way :D , so we went to “Zankou” to have shawerma, I’ve been craving for it for more than 7 months, and it was one hell of a sandwich :D …

I’ve never been to an Arabic restaurant since I moved to the states, although we have one in Pasadena and it’s only 20 minutes a way, but I don’t know, I didn’t think about it since my mom cooks Arabic food all the time (el 7amdolla), but you know.. Shawerma at an Arabic restaurant had a different taste :) .

	Look at this people… really.. this is one of the things I REALLY miss.. its here.. in this picture :) I was walking around the place like crazy, smiling, excited, just happy :D
	Fatina on the other hand was just laughing at me :D , I was playing with Yara and Rama, and poor thing she was so embarrassed :D … who cares :D
	Today was a very nice birthday for Fatina, she had fun, I had fun, the girls enjoyed their time :D .. everything was hust nice :DLook at Yara enjoying her Shawerma :D CUUUUUUTEEEEEEEEEE :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATOON ;)

 I I I I I I I I I I ….

Ok here it is… am am am am I I I I I…

Really I don’t know…

Great leader isn’t he?

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Have you ever thought about the little things around you that makes you happy? Or even naturally high? :D

 This is my list for the thing that makes me naturally hight…  :D

1.       Being in love.

2.       Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3.       A hot shower.

4.       No queues at the supermarket.

5.       Taking a drive on a pretty road.

6.       Hearing your favourite song on the radio.

7.       Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

8.       Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

9.       Chocolate milkshake … (or strawberry!)

10.     A bubble bath.

11.     Giggling.

12.     A good conversation.

13.     Finding a $20 in your coat from last winter.

14.     Running through sprinklers (Yes Yes I did it and it feels great :D ).

15.     Laughing for absolutely no reason at all (and that has nothing to do with me being crazy :D )

16.     Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful.

17.     Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

18.     Waking up and realising you still have a few hours left to sleep.

19.     Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

20.     Having someone play with your hair.

21.     Sweet dreams.

22.     Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

23.     Holding hands with someone you care about.

24.     Running into an old friend and realising that some things (good or bad) never change.

25.     Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much-desired present from you.

26.     Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

27.     Knowing that somebody misses you.

28.     Getting a hug from someone you care about  cares about you deeply.

29.     Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

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This lady is so cool :D .. she really cracked me up LOOOOOOOOOOOL :D

I have no idea what’s her name or who she is, all I know that I just loved this video and I wanted to share it with you :D

And as she said… howa ento fahmeen haga??? :D