Maioush

 This the 6^th day and I still feel the same, the pain refuses to leave my body for a minute, constant fever and headache, and I’m saying fever to the point of hallucinating!! Every single bone and muscle in my body hurts like hell.

I don’t have flu, I know that, my throat doesn’t hurt, my ears are not infected, I don’t have a runny nose, NOTHIG from the out side hurts, it’s all inside.

I’m feeling cold every time I move, and I mean by that extremely cold, freezing cold, shaking to the point of crying because of the pain, what the hell is wrong with me???

I’ve been taking pain killers ever 8 hours, once the effect is gone I start shaking like there is no tomorrow, the headache becomes so strong to the point I feel like my brain is going to explode, not to mention that even when I touch my hair it hurts!!

I don’t know what going on with me, for all I know I’m in pain, I can’t sleep even if I want to, don’t feel like food, and I’m in constant pain, I’m sick of this, don’t usually get sick, and even when I do, it’s usually common cold or flu, and recover really fast, but THIS, I don’t know what it is, I just don’t wanna be in pain any more, my mood is really bad because of this, I’m crying when anybody talks to me, even if it’s nothing really, I’m not used to be in bed like this.

I don’t know what to do any more, I’m just so sick

Why are men put in charge of ships in an ocean, satellites in outer space, and tanks in the desert, but they can’t seem to find the ketchup bottle in the refrigerator?

Today’s random quote:

“The truth is always exciting. Speak it, then. Life is dull without it.” ~ Pearl S. Buck

I’m honestly not in the mindset to write today, and for the life of me, I’m not coming up with anything to say about this one. Maybe it’s because I think it’s a bit backwards. Don’t people usually make up lies in order to create excitement because the truth seems boring to them? Maybe she means the truth is really more exciting than we actually realize.  I don’t know. What are your thoughts on this one?

 Celebrate the night.

Celebrate the year.

Celebrate LIFE.

Celebrate the successes and the failures you have experienced.

It takes both for us to grow.

Celebrate the love within you.

For yourself and for others.

Always remember how important love is in your life.

Celebrate the difficulties you have faced.

Without them you wouldn’t know your own merit.

Celebrate the people in your life.

Treasure what they add to each day.

Celebrate each new beginning.

Step away from the mistakes of the past.

Learn from them but don’t carry them with you into a new day.

Celebrate by dancing.

Celebrate by singing.

Celebrate by creating something wonderful that can be shared.

Celebrate Life.

Celebrate the day.

Live it well.

Top 10 Dream Killers

1. Don’t Get Up: Sleep in. You won’t miss much. And whatever you do miss will be picked up by someone else.

2. Don’t Ask: Fail to ask questions. What you don’t know doesn’t hurt you physically, it usually justs affects your bottom-line.

3. Don’t Tell: Fail to share your knowledge with others and they will fail to share theirs with you. What goes around comes around. Sounds fair.

4. Don’t Plan: Planning takes up a lot of time and you will need that time to sleep in.

5. Don’t Earn: Expect others to hand your dream to you. After all, you deserve it and you’re well-rested.

6. Don’t Care: Make agreements with yourself and others and then don’t show up. It’s ok, because they are going to hand you your dream anyway.

7. Don’t Write: Don’t waste time writing things down. Especially since you aren’t going to keep the agreement anyway.

8. Don’t Stop: Run your engine at full throttle at all times. Don’t stop to ask questions or reflect on why you are sleeping in.

9. Don’t Set Goals: Setting goals is a waste of time, especially when other people are going to hand you your dreams.

10. Don’t Simplify: Try to collect and do as many things as you can regardless of whether they line up with any of your goals. It will help impress those folks who are waiting to hand you your dream.

And for those of you who prefer a more positive spin on things, here are the…

Top 10 Dream Stimulants

1. Get Up: The early bird gets the worm. You snooze, you lose. It’s really is that simple.

2. Ask Questions: There is no such thing as a stupid question. Ask and you shall receive. Knowledge is power. ‘Nuff said.

3. Share Your Knowledge: Remember the Golden Rule “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” Help others to achieve their goals and they will in turn help you.

4. Plan Ahead: Create an organizational system that fits your lifestyle and use it. Dreams don’t just happen. They are carefully thought-out and well-executed.

5. Learn To Earn: Don’t expect anyone to hand things to you or to trust you. Learn to earn the trust of others by being faithful.

6. Be Faithful: When you make a commitment, either keep it or renegotiate the terms. Do not “forget” or fail to execute it in any way.

7. Write It Down: Writing things down actually helps you to remember them. Write down your dreams, your commitments and anything else that is important to you. Review your notes as often as you need to in order to stay focused.

8. Slow Down: Going full-speed all the time will not only kill your dream, it will kill you. Your dream will be a waste if you end up six feet under. Take time every day to listen to music, chat with a friend or do something that you love to do.

9. Set Realistic Goals: Dreams can be achieved by creating small, attainable goals along the way. Make sure that you work effectively toward those goals on a daily basis.

10. Simplify: Eliminate physical, mental and emotional junk from your life as often as possible. You won’t miss any of it.

And those were the lessons I learned in 2007. so Happy new year my friends, wish 2008 will be a better year for all of you  :)

 When I logged into my computer this morning, the random quote from google that greeted me was this:

“Let her [woman] receive encouragement for the proper cultivation of all her powers, so that she may enter profitably into the active business of life.” ~ Lucretia Mott

I think the part that smacked me in the face this morning was the word “proper”. As women, we have lots of powers. Some we use for good and others we squander or don’t use at all. Ultimately we are the ones choosing which powers to exercise and whether we will use them for good or evil. We are all constantly trying to “cultivate our powers” but are we receiving the right materials to prosper?

Ms. Mott suggests we should receive encouragement in order for the proper cultivation to take place. Much like a plant that needs water, sunlight and other nutrients to grow, encouragement is essential to our own growth. Without it, we may cultivate power, but is it proper? We can still grow and have power but it will be weak, wilted and poorly formed much like a plant that doesn’t get enough sunlight. Without the positive influence of encouragement, we cannot grow properly.

What can we do to ensure that we are properly cultivating power to others today?

 Silence is golden. I hear that phrase a lot. Usually from other people who say it in a very biting tone of voice. Maybe it’s because I am a music freak and I’m always making noise that tends to annoy other people. But even when I stop playing music and shut off my stereo (which takes extreme willpower for me to actually power it down) and try to be “quiet”, everything still seems pretty loud. My external world may have dropped to zero decibels, but my brain is still cranked to the max and all I hear are a bunch of screaming voices getting louder and louder as they compete for my attention.
We all have voices in our head, don’t deny it. Psychologists call them our “inner dialog” but I feel more like it’s a one-sided lecture rather than a conversation with myself. The “me” on the outside really isn’t getting a word in edge-wise as the voices increase their intensity and read me the riot act.

I’ve done a lot of research on this “inner dialog” stuff and it is fascinating. All the self-improvement experts will tell you that you should turn that negative banter into positive affirmations, but I think that is so bogus. It sounds nice in theory, but let’s be real. I don’t know about you, but the voices in my head have absolutely no tact whatsoever. They are highly critical of everything I do and they are not afraid to speak up and tell me what they think. I once thought about following that “expert” advice and teaching them to say some nice things. The first training session went something like this:
Me: “Good morning, Maioush. How’s it going today?”
Voices: “What’s good about it?”
Me: “Well, the sun is out and it’s a great day!”
Voices: “It’s hot and muggy. Go back to bed.”
Me: “But there’s a lot to do today, let’s get an early start.”
Voices: “Early? You’ve never been early for anything! Why start now?”
Me: “Well, I want to be productive today so I’m gonna get started…”
Voices: “Productive? That’s a big word for you.”
Me: “I think I can handle it. We’re going to start thinking positively now guys.”
Voices: *deafening sound of laughter*
Me: “Here’s the plan…Instead of you all nagging and criticizing me, I want you to say things in a nicer, more upbeat way. You know, encourage me. Motivate me. You can do it!”
Voices: More laughter followed by “Um…sure. Ok.”
Me: “Now what should I do first today?”
Voices: “Here’s something productive for you…why don’t you go work out?”
Me: “Hey good idea! And you were even nice about it!”

“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing. Security does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than exposure.” ~ Helen Keller

I love this quote, but I could also summarize it in three words:  “Take a risk!”  To me Helen is telling us that we are not truly living unless we step into the unknown and face the unimaginable.  It’s so true.  Reminds me of a conversation I had with my friend the other day:

R: “so how is your new job?”

Me:  “I’m doing well  el 7amdolla, I still have a lot to learn, but they like me so far.”

R: “sounds great! Good for you, Mai. Did you plan all of this as you dreamed of leaving the medical field and jump in to this, although you never worked it before?”

Me: “No. Planning sucks.  I prefer to wander around and amuse myself as I go.  All kinds of fun stuff just pops up that way.  ”

R : “Me, too.  ”

Although I DO plan some things in my life, I have no guarantees.  Everything I have accomplished in the last 2+ years has been the result of taking risks.  Had I not stepped out and followed my dream, I would have missed out on so much – this blog, new friends …   I have been living a daring adventure.  Have you?

 LOL!! You keep complaining about them, you keep telling everybody that they suck, and you end up joining them?? Lah lah lah :D

Amman changed so many things in you Q, you are not the man we know any more, I’m disappointed sara7a!

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Listen man, I’m kidding mesh tsade2, my laptop went crazy and I got this when I opened your blog :)