Maioush

We’ve all had the experience of being our own worst critic. One part of our mind is encouraging, the other is doubtful. One side of our mind says “follow your dreams!” and the other side says “you’ll never make it.”

Is it possible that the story of Adam and Eve can explain this conflict, this battle for our mind?

Adam and Eve lived in the Garden of Eden, they lived in communion with God, they were one with Him.

But when Adam and Eve ate the fruit from the Tree of Knowledge, they experienced separation from God. For the first time they started searching for what they already had within them.

I’m not sure what I’m trying to say here, it’s just a thought that crossed my mind when i saw this book with my co-worker

In The Voice of Knowledge, Don Miguel Ruiz offers the familiar story of Adam and Eve from a different light.

Growing up, I spent a lot of time thinking about the purpose of life. In school they would tell you the purpose is to go to heaven and to be a good person. “Why?” I always thought. There’s no question that being a good person is essential for living a fulfilling life. But what’s the point? Why do anything at all?

Why is a meaningless question. The reason being, why always leads us in an infinite loop. You can always repeat the answer to “why” with another “why.” The only time the question really ends is when you answer “because it’s fun” or “because I enjoy it.”

This took me a while to accept, but the purpose of life is to enjoy it. If you’re trying to find the purpose of life, by looking for something outside of life, you’re never going to find an answer. That’s because the purpose of life is life.

That doesn’t help you much, does it? We all want a larger purpose, something to give our lives meaning when everything seems meaningless.

The truth is, life doesn’t have a purpose. That’s hard to swallow. When I realized this, I felt lost. I felt confused and I felt like giving up.

What I failed to realize is that life doesn’t have a purpose because of free will. There is no purpose forced on you. You can choose to have a purpose, or to not have a purpose, but life isn’t going to give you one. You don’t need to let this bother you though. The only reason you need for having a purpose is because you want one.

The only question you need to answer now, is do you want a purpose or do you not want one? As soon as you figure that out, let me know. I’ll wait.

I’m assuming that if you’re still reading, your answer was yes. That’s good, because not having a purpose isn’t very fun. At least not for me.

Now that we have that sorted out, we need to understand one crucial thing that drives people to insanity and causes them to spend their lives in the confines of a cubicle.

And that is:

Your purpose is not your job

Yes, that’s right. Your purpose has nothing to do with your degree, your resume, your career, or vocation. Your purpose is independent of all those things. In fact, it’s much bigger than any of those.

Purpose has to do with your creative self expression. It has to do with what makes you feel alive. It’s something you do, where at the end of the day you think “I made a difference.”

Now, if you want to find out what that is, take a minute to do a little exercise that I read bout once long time ago ( I wish I can remember the source!!)

1. Take out a blank sheet of paper or open word, or notepad, Whatever works best for you.

2. Now write at the top “What is my true purpose in life?”

3. Write everything that comes to mind. Don’t think about it too much, just write.

4. Keep writing until you write something that makes you cry. That is your purpose.

When you come up with your final answer, you will know it. It won’t be something you’ve decided logically, you will simply know it in your heart.

If you find this exercise to not be structured enough, change the question to “How would I want to be remembered when I die?”

After you’ve discovered your purpose, your job is to live as closely in alignment with it as possible. The more you live in alignment with your purpose or your bliss, the more you will deeply enjoy your life.

Now remember when I said that your “job” is not your purpose? Well, it’s half-true. Your career can be a medium for the expression of your purpose. If your purpose is to help others live in truth and express your inner creativity, you’re probably not going to be able to do that very well working as an file-clerk for a company that is greedy and self-serving. You can live partially in alignment with your purpose this way, trying to help others and going against the morals or your employer, but you’re still ultimately assisting corporate greed.

You’ll probably find living in complete harmony with your purpose isn’t easy. It might take you a year, or a few years before you find a medium (a career path) that best serves the expression of your purpose. If you can’t find a job out there that does that, you might have to create one .

So how do you move more in alignment with your purpose? How do you take your purpose and your dreams and make them a reality?

“Write down your goals.” The age old advice you’ll hear on every self-development blog. As if you just write them down, everything else will take care of itself.

Poof!

Life is complete and you can rest in peace.

Not quite.

I don’t really have a lot of goals. In fact, I make it a point to not have them because they make me miserable. That doesn’t mean I don’t aim and aspire to do awesome things. I do. Life wouldn’t be worth living without that. It’s just that I don’t have a goal sheet. I don’t have a list of achievements I want to make in the next 3 months, 6 months, or 5 years.

Why?

Because goals have hurt me more than they’ve helped.

If you’re anything like me, you want to do a lot. You don’t dream tiny. You dream big. Really big.

You-want-it-all.

And there’s nothing wrong with that. The problem is that too often we get our goals caught up in who we are. If we don’t achieve them, we’re a failure. I’ve certainly felt like this so many times in my life. So instead of goals, I try to live based on principles. I try to live in alignment with what I value most. Instead of having unrealistic and fantastic goals, I have aspirations and dreams instead.

While goals seem nice and pretty on the outside, not so nice on the inside. You think they’ll help you. After all, isn’t the point of having goals to help you create a better life?

But exactly the opposite happens. They end up owning you.

You measure how much you’ve done to meet your goals. You usually shoot for the moon. You aim high when you set your goals and that’s a good thing right? The problem is you usually fall short. Then you punish yourself for not achieving everything you wanted to. Your mind thinks “if you don’t achieve this, if you don’t live up to this image of perfection, you’re not allowed to be happy.”

That’s ridiculous.

I’ve lived too long like that and I just can’t do it anymore. I can’t let seemingly positive things force me to walk around unhappy all the time because I’m falling short. It’s not worth it.

So as I said earlier, instead of goals I have ideals that I try to live by. I value certain things like family, freedom, fitness, and creativity. As long as I’m doing things that keep me in alignment with those things, I’m happy. I don’t have a goal to become more creative by reading 7 books next month. I don’t have a goal to run 6 miles a day. Because if I don’t, I’ll inevitably beat myself up. I failed. My ego gets wrapped up in it and I obsess over it.

Just like I’ve decided being lazy is better for me, I’ve decided to give up on goals.

I’ve also found a few other seemingly counterintuitive things work better for me:

*  I’ve stopped caring a lot.

* I’ve learned that doing more doesn’t usually bring me more happiness. But doing less does.

*  I’ve learned that doing “what works” doesn’t really work for me.

*  I’ve learned that constantly trying to improve your life, can often make it worse.

I’ve learned that taking it easy and following your natural rhythms is much more important than productivity. What matters most is how much joy you’re currently experiencing in the present moment. If you’re putting off your happiness until you accomplish something, you’re failing at life.

We can’t wait to appreciate things another day. Our happiness cannot be determined by a to-do list or the achievement of goals.

I’ve stopped making goals because I often find myself living in the future. I’m so obsessed with completing the goal, it often makes the task a chore. I just want to finish it. I lose sight of why I’m doing it in the first place, to have a better life.

I’ve also stopped (as much as I can, it’s not easy) having expectations. As Michael Landon said once “I don’t have expectations. Expectations in your life just lead to giant disappointments.” That doesn’t mean I don’t put forth any effort to make things good, I do. I’m just not attached the outcome. If things don’t turn out the way I wanted them to, I’ll naturally get disappointed and start going on an emotional rollercoaster. It’s better to do what you can and let things happen as they will.

Tomorrow at noon I’ll be heading to California, I wish I can say I’m going there for a vacation, I’m going there to see m dad, he was diagnosed with bone marrow cancer (multiple myeloma).

I still can’t believe it, for me it’s just a bad dream, my dad will be fine, that’s what I want, that’s what I wish for, I’ve been praying for him, and reading Qur’an for 2 days now, I know god will listen to us, I know he’ll answer our prayers, god is ra7eem, baba will be fine, baba will be fine, baba will be fine, baba will be fine, baba will be fine, baba will be fine, baba will be fine, baba will be fine.

YA RAB.

مع كل اللي عم بصير مش قادرة أسكت أكتر من هيك، راح أحكي اللي بقلبي و اللي بدو يصير يصير، لأنو اللي صاير هاد كتير

كل ما أفتح التلفزيون بعصب أكتر، التعليقات اللي بسمعها من رؤساء بتخليني أحس اني رح أروح أولع فيهم، شوي بسمع خبر بحكيلك عاهل الأردن يقول أن الوضع لا يسكت عليه، لا يا شيخ؟؟؟ بالله؟؟ لا يسكت عليه؟؟ طيب ياخي لا تسكت، مش بعديها تروح تعمل زي أبوك و تقعد على ركبك لما تنزل على إسرائيل وتعزي نسوان اليهود ببنات اليهود إلي فجر فيهم الاردني مشان تضمن ما يطب فيك حدا

وبعديها بتسمع أمير البحرين بطلب عقد مؤتمر، اعقد يا روح أمك اعقد، اعقد و أقعدو قدام بعض وتخانقو زي الأولاد الصغار، وبالأخر بتخلص انكم بتسبوا على بعض الله لا يكبركم

كلو كوم والأفندي محمود عباس اللي كل العلم قاعده بتموت و هو بطلع بقلك شو.. استنكر… هادا اللي الله قدرك عليه؟؟؟ تستنكر؟؟ وجع انشالله

واللي عن جد فاقعلي مرارتي بقرة مصر  الضاحكة مبارك، اللي كل الدنيا بتسب عليه و هو ولا إلو ولا على بالو، لعنه الله عليه محل ما كان

الناس كلها قاعده بتعمل مظاهرات، احكي لواحد منهم يلا لموو حالكم او انزلوا حاربو، بحكيلك لأ واو أنا مال أهلي.. يلعن شكل هيك أمة

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Khalaaaas I’ve had it with some people, what part of me ignoring you don’t you get? Tayeb balash, what part of me telling you that I don’t want to talk to you don’t you get??

I just don’t get it, can people really be that “mlkal7een” I mean help me out here, when you tell someone that you really don’t like them, and just by hearing there voice you get 600 3afreet on you, having said that, you really don’t want to talk to them abadan, next thing you know, you see them around you like nothing happened, enno what kind of a “loo7 are you”?? Seriously.. The only thing I can think of is that “you don’t have any blood” as in “a 3endak dam”.

I’m not saying that just because I want to be mean, these people have caused enough trouble in my life in the past, thing that affected me for a long long time, and would love to forget about it, and just forget these people FOREVER!!!

You confront some of these people, you send hints to others, and you ignore others, bs mafi faydeh, elli ma 3endo dam ma ra7 y7es wala yefham, I’ve never been in this situation before, I really never said to anybody on earth that I hate them before, I never did, EVER, but some people actually got on my nerves to the point that o screamed it out loud in their face, because of what they did, yet they manage not to listen and continue to get on my nerves just by being around, and yes it’s that bad, them being round is the most annoying thing can ever happen to me!!!

Just get the hell out if my life .. and forever .. PLEASE!!!

Since I started this job, they told me I have to work Sundays, I take Friday off instead, and OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH MYYYYYYYYYYYYYY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD, the day goes by SUPER SLOW, nobody is here except me and couple of guys from the lab.

I have to admit, I’m one of those who’d rather have a very busy day at work more that a slow day, because simply, the day goes by waaaaaaay faster, but this is like dying slowly, last Sunday I was about to sleep while setting, beside the fact that I annoyed the heck of Husbany by calling him ever 30 min complaining how bored I was, 7abeebi he is sooooooooo taweel bal.

back to my slow day. ::Sleepy::

Sometimes couples get so wrapped up planning the wedding; they forget about the actual marriage. Married life isn’t all cozy dinners and intimate times; it’s also a lot of compromise and communication. So how are we (and b we I mean newlyweds) Adjust to our new life?

Compromise.
The word sounds easy enough, but when it comes to all the routine parts in our lives we take for granted (and have been doing the same way for years), it can be easier said than done.

You may be a clean freak and he may think it’s fine to leave a week’s worth of dishes in the sink. Or you might crash at 10 p.m. while he’d rather stay up past midnight. Each of these living adjustments can initially seem like deal breakers, but if you’re married then you can’t bail so easily-you need to find some middle ground. That may mean you don’t blow up at him whenever there’s a dirty plate on the counter and she takes a nap in the evening so she can stay up with you, but whatever the solution, it should be something the two of you come up with together.

Money Matters.
Money can be a sensitive issue, and we all need to figure out how to handle our savings, debts, investments and incomes. For some a joint account works fine, but for others, keeping your money separate or having a joint and separate account can be the key to staying together. Ideally we should figure out what system would be best before getting married.

Another key to financial happiness is full disclosure. That means you can’t hide your massive credit card debt and he needs to own up to any spending sprees as well. Because even if your money is in separate accounts, you’re still a team and one person’s actions affect the other.

Your First Fight.
It doesn’t quite have the same ring to it as your first dance or first kiss, but the first major fight is bound to happen and is just as, if not more, important to your marriage, because it will set the tone for how you handle future conflicts.

“The problem that most married couples run into is that they say [what’s bothering them] when they’re angry. Never discuss serious issues in the heat of the moment, wait until later when everything’s fine and say ‘this is how I felt when that happened, If it gets so heated that everybody’s yelling, you have to make an agreement that the argument will stop because it’s just not doing anything for you.”

Nobody ever said marriage was easy, but we can all make the transition go much smoother if we’re willing to compromise. And to give us all a little perspective.

My mom gave me those advices before I got married to keep in mind: 

“[Your partner] stays the same and the relationship stays the same. Things you like about the person you like more, and things that bother you bother you more. If you go into the marriage thinking that will somehow be different, you put unnecessary pressure on the relationship,”

“There is no such thing as happily ever after. There’s good times and bad, but don’t expect to be happy all the time. People that expect to be happy all the time get disappointed a lot and get divorced early,”

I never knew that fall exists!!! You know how they used to tell us that there are 4 seasons, I never saw more than summer and winter really, but I tell you guys, this is for real, after all these years I saw fall LOL! What’s makes it more amazing, it’s right by my door, look at these pictures, it’s right by our house, that’s what we see when we open our eyes in the morning and look through tour lake view window, it’s just amazing :D 

the tree above this plant is RED!!! :D 

this is right by our window, isn’t it amazing!! 

 there is nothing like walking around in the morning with your cup of coffee around this area :)

lake view window

the front door tree

now after seeing all these amazing pictures let me tell you what I HATE about it, all these leaves end up in the house every time we step put, o kansi ya Mai!!! i sweep and vacuum almost twice a day cuz if I don’t people will think that I’m m3afneh :$

Kol fall o ento b 5ear :D