Love… Slow poison!
It’s ridiculous to say that being in love with someone doesn’t inevitably change you in any way. I don’t mean that when someone loves you they poison you, just that they probably kill some bad parts of the old you, which is probably a really good thing anyway.
I can’t say for a fact that I’m completely healed from a variety of things but I guess I’m still dragging my broken body and spirit from one day to the next.
It’s amazing what a few bad relationships can do to your psyche. I’m not just talking about bf/gf relationships but with friends and family too. A bad relationship has the ability to shatter your trust in many things. It breaks you down to a new level. You’re not physically hurt, but your mental being faces a near fatal blow that you need recovering from. Your mouth’s dry, your gut feels heavy, you’re more sensitive to any new pain that comes you way.
It generally takes a longer time for you to recover from a bad relationship than a physical illness. All you can do is to try to push through the misery and disillusionment you feel to try to trust again and open yourself up fully. It’s always a risk that you take whether it’s allowing somebody new into your heart or forgiving someone who’s wronged you terribly.
All love is slow poison, we all kill little parts of ourselves in order to sustain any relationship. It’s always a give and take situation, there’s no two ways about it. We barter the little shreds of our personality until there’s nothing left of us at the end of the road.
Relationships are the luck of the draw, you never know what you’re going to get. It’s not always a bad thing though, it’s about finding someone you can trust.
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